My Double Life

This trip is becoming a part of me, and I haven’t even bought my ticket yet or reserved a room.  It is still as far away from reality as Santa Claus is– it’s nothing but a goal.  But we have somehow morphed it from a simple table conversation, into an identification– and it’s a bit of a surprise.  My workdays consist of a constant countdown, my evenings a cross between studying and researching…and I don’t mind it a bit.  In fact, it’s offered to me a level of drive that I haven’t felt in many years.  I am motivated to continue with my weekdays in a much more positive light than I was a year ago.  I have hope.  I am working toward something I have always dreamed of doing, and that in itself has really changed me.  Everyday life seems to carry a lighter emotional weight when you are working towards a goal. I feel lucky for having discovered this.